The first of Januray has always been special to me in someway or the other.I have kind of been brought up with the school of thought that whate ver I do on the New Year Day would be what I would do the most the rest of the year.So it had always been rising up early that day,visitng the temple with my parents,followed by some good food,reading for sometime and some fun.More or less good things.After having spent nearly half the life time of an average human being,I wonder is all this really true?Of these three decades that I have tread on this earth,it have only four years or so that I have stayed away from Family.I do miss those special days.It was always nice.I am not much of a party freak,even though I am called a "people -person".So this year I decided i would spend it on a much lighter tone.It was just a very small international "close friends" circle.So how does one define close?Well,this is kind of fuzzy.For it never remains the same.We make choice where we want to be.Does it matter that someone we like does not decide to be with us?Not really.So except for a few wishes to some of my friends and family,I did not do much.Its not that I am not thinking about them..it has to just do with the fact that I want to experience the feeling of being happy in one's own presence.Wow,I have not touched that phone in the last 16 hours or so.Apart from the fact that it is kind of a new year resolution to be on the phone for as little time as possible,it has also got to do with me running out of my daytime minutes.Yeah,responsible me! I am thankful to a lot of people who have been responsible for me being present here today.I thank them all..not on the phone,not even in person,but as a silent prayer to God to bless them.Fot they had accepted me as what I was and stood by my side.Recently my social circle has been growing again,and I am kind of scared.Why?Well I am the kind of person who likes stability.Larger induce greater instability..this is what I learnt from a dear from of mine KA.One of those few you can talk to without being afraid of being yourself.Is it just me?Ofcourse not.I dont think so.
Recently I came across this well educated,quite ,good looking(I still doubt it,But my friends think it is so) woman.I did find her presence quite charming.But then it was frightening enough when she was presumptuos about my behavior towards her.Hah!I then had to do some kind of damage control and is now a part of history.On the same note I guess I fell out of the graces of a very sociable cosmopolitian indian human species.Does it matter?Well, life goes on...That is what I have learnt.I am happy to be back on my feet.I was fortunate enough to not succumb to different pressure fronts that I had to face and look up to the new year for health, prosperity and fame.More importantly I seem to be leaning more towards my career as an astrophysicist with more gusto than before and that is a Good Sign.Taking stock,
Moments of delirious sadness
Have ,but disappeared .
What exists is Hope
And in its presence Everything shall be born.
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